It’s Friday!!! What has been the best part of your week?
The best part was reading a text that my 14 year old sent me Wednesday morning that said “Love you mom so much be safe today (heart emoji)." How he warmed my heart. :) Not only because I felt seen, loved, and appreciated, but also because he was open to sharing a piece of his heart with me.
Day three of the bible study, when I eventually opened it, I rediscovered the beauty of Hannah’s story. In her frustration, anguish, and resentment, she ran to God, rather than from him. Let's look at a few verses:
7... and each time she went up to the house of Adonai, she taunted her so much that she would cry and not eat.10 In deep depression she prayed to Adonai and cried.12 She prayed for a long time before Adonai; and as she did so, ‘Eli was watching her mouth. 13 Hannah was speaking in her heart — her lips moved, but her voice could not be heard — so ‘Eli thought she was drunk.14 ‘Eli said to her, “How long are you going to stay drunk? Stop drinking your wine!” 15 But Hannah answered, “No, my lord, I am a very unhappy woman. I have not drunk either wine or other strong liquor; rather, I’ve been pouring out my soul before Adonai. 16 Don’t think of your servant as a worthless woman; because I have been speaking from the depth of my distress and anger.”
1 Samuel 1: 7-13 CJB
Hannah pulled away to go to the temple and pray. It’s not always enough to pray on our way to work, or when doing the dishes. There are too many distractions. Truth be told, we only give half of ourselves to the one who gives us his entire self. Hannah was physically present in the temple, but the most crucial aspect was that she was emotionally available. As she bowed and prayed, she surrendered her entire being and heart.
God offers us grace in the moments we need to pause and breathe. When we hit the pause button on the world – that does NOT mean with God too.
Do NOT run from God
Not when we are angry, disappointed, confused,
hurt, depressed, lonely, resentful, broken, distressed, unhappy, guilty, shamed...
We will NOT keep running from God.
Rather than running from God, we MUST RUN TO HIM.
If not, those pauses can quickly become a shelter for complacency, excuses, and despair. Then we'll find ourselves lounging on the couch with the remote, attempting to escape confronting what we need to face. Sitting at Jesus' feet requires being undistracted and vulnerable.
How honest are we with God?
All in all, there are just some people…Well, let me speak for myself. Despite how good my support system is, there are times I’m not as candid about how I am REALY doing and feeling. And even worse, I attempt to do the same with God.
Elohim is omniscient and omnipresent. My creator is all-knowing and always present. I cannot hide from him physically, emotionally, mentally, or spiritually because He KNOWS me.
And He KNOWS YOU~
Can we be honest with God without being vocal?
Hannah was so overwhelmed by her emotions, that she prayed silently. Her silent prayer and ugly cry caused Eili to think she was drunk. To be honest, there are times when I find it difficult to open my mouth to pray.
I don't have the energy to say anything other than "God help me." Then there are times when I just let the tears do the talking for me. I understand that there are times when it is difficult to find the words to pray. Satan will guilt us into feeling we aren't "Christian" or "faith-filled” because of our weak moments.
I sympathize with anyone who is going through a mental, spiritual, emotional, or physical crisis. I understand what it's like to suffer in quiet. We, women have to do better in taking every single emotion like Hannah to our heavenly Father. Our hearts are the seat of our emotions. By revisiting Hannah’s story, I’m reminded that God sees my heart and your heart.
~Even in your silence - God hears your heart friends~
God cares about you and your overall wellness, every detail. He understands how you feel.
Thanks be to God
who sees you, loves you, and calls you chosen and treasured.
Our meltdowns, temper tantrums, and cry baby moments do not define us, nor do they change how our Creator sees us. Hannah felt protected in the Lord's presence. Others may not be able to handle our honesty, but your heavenly Father has broad shoulders that can withstand it. He is the same as he was yesterday, today, and forever. You have the same level of safety in him that Hannah did.
Let's put a pin here. I can't wait to share with you next week.